I don't know what to say

I want to apologize.

I want to say I'm sorry

not for what i've done, because I feel that there's nothing wrong with it

but just for thinking it was a good idea to try and protect him.

I still want him in my life

He really means so much to me still

Even after everything

I don't want to lose you

I want to talk to him

and see what you want

if you're even worth going through all of this possible difficulties

I want to know what he told him and vice versa

I don't like being in the dark

I hate not knowing what's going on

I don't want things to change

But I want things to change if that means things will get better...and that means in general.